Oh, you can see deadlines rolling in by how I am starting to write more stuff in the blog. The less time you have, the more distracted you get, I guess.

Now anyway, here’s something I was thinking a lot lately. Negativity really gets me down. The usual advice is, if someone creates a lot of negativity, don’t be friends with him. Unfortunately, can’t unfriend myself. Now, sometimes I really get disappointed with myself which turns into a mix of anger and envy towards others, who are more successful, usually my friends.

Which sucks, since I may or may not have lost some of them because I had a long stretch of feeling down which translated in quite aggressive behaviour on my part. Fortunately, someone said to me “damn, you should really shift down a bit”. It took me some time to realize that my usually good-natured banter has taken up an complainian and disapproving tone. I haven’t noticed this, since I gradually slipped into it.

These days, I do try to be more approving of the actions of my friends and complain less about my own so-and-so horrible life. But it’s a slippery slope anyway and I am not sure what to do to prevent this from happening again (and again, and again). Hopefully, there will be someone to kick my ass again, if that happens again.

If you happen to be that person, please do kick my ass. Thanks in advance!